![]() Though I identified as bisexual, I was still too afraid to date women.Īpproaching or asking out a woman or non-binary person feel scarier than asking out a man. My femininity is defined by me.Back in 2018, I often found myself swooning over garbage men and pretending like their horrible behavior was amazing. I never had a problem expressing my femininity when I was younger. It makes being called “she” all the more special. Feel free to call me “she” or the “they” many of you are used to. I am beginning to explore she/they pronouns. We are in this together, as a queer community. While the Lesbian Masterdoc is trans-inclusive and the Trans Masterdoc places a focus on the trans experience, I hope this gives other nonbinary lesbians confidence to share their stories too. I was a lesbian then and I’m a lesbian now. Non-men, with a trans (T4T) preference are typically the people I hold close, with exceptions of course. I’ve identified as one with close friends and family since September of last year. Unless you’re a TERF, which I am certainly not, lesbianism has been trans-inclusive (think Leslie Feinberg and hir Stone Butch Blues). I’ve had many conversations with Syd about what it is like to be a lesbian. There is a specific comfort with women and trans people that is not describable. Since high school, my friend groups have always been predominantly non-men. I went shopping with her, I loved trying on new clothes and modeling them. You can ask anyone (especially my Mom) about me as a child, and she will tell you that I was always the girl she never had. Instead of feeling no affiliation to gender in my identity and expression like I did, I have found a lot of comfort in femininity recently. It always felt too taboo or nonsensical to say that part out loud. I’ve been publicly nonbinary for a couple of years now, but have always kept the “agender” part a secret I only shared with other queer people. It may sound and look a little silly, but it brought up an important thought: Do I like this? Well, the answer is yes. My Switch Mii and Animal Crossing character were two ways that I began to explore trans-femininity. Note the joking “Occasional Lass” title and she/they pronouns. At first, it didn’t really seem all that different to me. I began expressing myself in trans-feminine ways through avatars in early September of this year. My thoughts detailed here are all due to the former. I felt it was time in each instance due to personal reflection, conversations with friends, fellow queer people, and allies. To catch everyone up to speed and contextualize everything, I came out publicly as pansexual on April 8th, 2020 and as transgender two months later on June 8th 2020. I want to catalog the way I’ve been feeling lately, with my own sexuality and gender, which is something I haven’t done publicly for some time. ![]() That is not the subject of this post, as I feel the ground has been laid out nicely by those before me. Both of these documents aim to help questioning individuals explore their identities reaching queer euphoria. The Trans Masterdoc was created after and as the title implies, gives more information to questioning trans-folk. If you aren’t familiar already, the Am I a Lesbian? Masterdoc is a pdf created by a handful of users on Tumblr who were coming to an understanding with their WLW sexuality.
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